There’s nothing to celebrate

 It’s been just awful 

He’s been awful 

I don’t want to celebrate my anniversary 

I’m only happy that I’ve got her

I can numb myself however much I want and convince myself that I should be happy … and then be

Maybe another lifetime I’ll choose someone who will make me feel loved 

Someone less crazy

Someone less sad and depressed 

Someone who is less serious 

His red line is being messy… and I am messy… and he is always mad… and that’s our life

Kids and marriage

 It’s been difficult being both 

I must admit that since she was born, I have been more of a mom than a wife 

I don’t know what will happen but it’s hard for me to feel in love when I’m constantly being annoyed 

 I would say I’m 85% responsible for the baby… and sometimes I don’t even want him to take over so I can take a break… I constantly feel annoyed and on the edge… not just w him with most ppl

I wish I could go back to  how we were before moving here… especially before getting married…. Before I saw this version of him… 

I think he has the right to be angry at me too… I wish I wasn’t so addicted to my phone