Tired of apologizing

 I need support 

Tired of feeling guilty about what I am saying to him

Tired of him not feeding her properly and then him passing her onto me to deal w her cries

I know he is “trying” but why do I have to deal with the mess that comes after?

And on top of that he is pushing me to give her breast milk… instead of telling me that it’s my choice

And he tells everyone that this is really hard and complicated even though she is a little angel… just because the formula and breasmilk make it too complicated FOR HIM!

They say you shouldn’t judge and let people feel what they feel

And on top of all of that he keeps nagging me about how much stuff/shit we have and how tired he is of receiving amazon boxes… like 10-20 times a day… and then he calls me a liar for not throwing out the formula i had left out by mistake and then put in the fridge … because i told him i forgot to throw it out and he tells me i can’t forget things like that!

I wish I could disappear for a day and take a break… not from her but from him… he is draining my energy 

The truth is I don’t even want to take the 1 month pictures with him anymore… I am just so tired.. and he doesn’t want to take them either. I will tell him tomorrow that he doesn’t have to… I am just so tired of crying because of him… maybe being a single parent is easier after all!