The universe

 They say that the universe matches your energy 

They say that if you think of what you want as something you already have it will come to you

I have always been of the belief that if you put in the right amount of effort things will eventually fall into place… that’s why I sometimes feel helpless because some things that I want are not one sided… what’s partially within my control is to help him find a job. Some days I turn that into my full time job, mostly to say that I did my part and help myself calm down. I am consistently bothered by the thought of “what if I didn’t do enough”.. what if a job came up and I didn’t flag if and that was the job that he could have got. It’s a battle between me myself and I. When I get in that mode, I become unstoppable and spend hours in a row looking and messaging people. I think I am done w doing that for now… I think at this point I have reached out to every single person that could possibly help… the rest is up to the universe 

I sometimes have moments where I wish we could both relax and enjoy the summer since there is another job that’s in the works and will happen if all the stars align… but there is also the doubts of what if it doesn’t…

Khodaya shokret