Feeling numb

 Yani in roozaa yeh rooz tamoom mishan?

Yani yeh rooz man barmigardam ba lablhabd be in roozaa negah mikonam?

Bazi moghe haa hes mikonam az naaraahati nemitoonam nafas bekesham

Az inkeh hameh in hes haaro too khodam rikhtamo nemitoonam dar moredeshoon harf bezanam haalam be ham mikhoreh

Badtar az hameh ineh keh midooni zendegi aasoontar nemisheh o hamash sakht tar misheh

Ehsaas mikonam yeh eshtebaaheh bozorg kardamo nemitoonam kaari konam. Hesseh yeh zendaanio daram. Zendaani too behesht

Hichvaght fekr nemikardam ezdevaj enghadr sakht baasheh… az in hameh sakhti khasteh shodamo bazi moghe ha mikhaam zireh hameh chi bezanamo beram… vali mesleh inkeh tarjih midam too sakhtish bemiram taa inkeh deleh oono beshkanam

Az inkeh enghadr doroo am az khodam badam miaad. Az inkeh enghad too delam ghezavatesh mikonamo nemitoonam hichi begam az khodam badam miaad

Az hameh oonaai ke tashvigham kardan ke ma beh ham beeesimo baa ham bemoonim badam miaad

Az inkeh enghadr koor boodamo maloom nist too che khaabeh zemestooni foroo rafteh boodam badam miaad

Az inkeh aayandam enghadr naa maloomo taarikeh khasteh shodamo badam miaad

Yani misheh cheshamo roo ham bezaramo faghat bemiram? 

Fardaa do saal az oon rooz migzareh… roozi ke mardom jashn migirano maa ham jashn migirim… chon man yeh doorooghgooyeh tarsooeh bozorg hastam ke hessamo nemitoonam ebraaz konam. Pas fardaaro dar otaagheh taarik jashn migirim, beh taarikio siaahieh hessi keh poshteh in labkhando aaraamesheh dorooghineh

Hesseh paarsaalamo yaadameh… baa inkeh kalaafeh boodam saboor boodamo omid daashtam vali hesseh alaanam hesse poochio khaalieh

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