Sunny and warm outside but feeling dead inside

 But not giving up yet….

And I still feel as ridiculous as I did when I created my post the other day… feeling ridiculous for complaining…

What I was hoping and praying for with every cell of my body didn’t work out…. I feel like I have been punched in the stomach and can’t get up… at least that’s how I feel on the inside 

I feel like I want to cry a river… I haven’t felt like this in a long long time… probably since I was looking for a job myself l. But at least back then at least I knew how to deal with stress. I’m tired of being hopeful… and tired of feeling empty inside despite all the good things that are happening.

They say everything happens for a reason…