And it all came crashing down

I don’t even know how it happened

This is the second time this year that I get blind sided

I feel so embarrassed... not because what I heard was true, but because someone views me as less than a high performer

I really can’t explain the relationship I have with my manager... no matter how hard I have tried I just can’t seem to get along with her. Yesterday she point blankly told me that I am in trouble and she is worried for me. She had tried to gather evidence on how I am not a great employee...

It’s like she said that and is waiting to proof to me that I’mnot great. And maybe I’m not. I thought that’s what managers were for. To ask them questions when you are not clear

Anyway...

I don’t like the fact that all I can think right now is somehow disappearing but I can’t do that either

I don’t think about it too much as “running away” because I want to try something new and get out of my comfort zone... maybe it has everything to do with what I decided at the last workshop.. love and growth are my top two needs

I have been sick for almost 2 weeks now... am on antibiotics... this is what showed up as I was typing “anti” 🐜

Anyway.... I feel lost but I will find myself... I always have... “embrace growth”