Pickle

Have you ever found yourself in a pickle? I have!

It has been almost 5 months now and although I enjoy hanging out with him I thibk the unspoken words make me so angry that I criticize him... and for that I dislike myself

I have never really been that great at communicating my feelings, particularly the negative ones, and although now I hve told him exactly what bothers me, the favt that he is not doing anything about it bothers me

It’s like this is a prequisite for me to even start considering seeing a future with him

No matter how hard I try I can’t get passed it

And since we “spontaneously” decided to go on vacation together I cannot help but to delay thibgs until after

I don’t want to hurt him and I don’t know how to do it in a way that it would make sense

I guess there is no “right” way of breaking someone’s heart

Anyway, I really don’t know what to do about it and I think I need to talk to a counselour

The only way that we can mybe make it work is for me to let him go and tell him that I will not be able to continue seeing him until he figures things out