Wounded

The cut is so deep that it doesn’t feel like it will ever heal

It’s been over 2 months now... I still feel hurt. I want to be an optimist and think that I will fall in love again and everything is going to be ok... but it’s hard... the reality is that it’s hard. I even had a dream about him last night.... a dream in which he was making love to someone else snd she mentioned my name and he said he doesn’t want to talk about me... anyway

There isso much that I am thankful for... I’m on a paid dating app and went on my first datr... it was ok... nothing too mind blowing

In general I’m ok... I’m trying my best not to think about the past... but sometimes I feel like acting like the victim...

He has left but I can’t bury him and his memory