Pathetic

Pathetic but exciting! You may wonder what? Well... theres this guy that I used to date who is happily married with two kids... I think it was his birthday today so he messaged me to ask me how I am... I know the two may seem unrelated but in 2011 I foolishly helped to organize. His surprise bd party and there was a post on fb on it today so I think that’s why he messaged me... anyway... I got excited to see his message... I think I want all the attention I can get these days... it makes me feel wanted...

Did I write about how I think that I have abandonment issues? Well I think I do

There are more than 1000 things that I can name that I am extremely grateful for so it seems kind of pathetic to worry about boy problems

In my dream I would go to work tomorrow and receive a bouquet of roses from an anonymous lover (secretly wishibg it’s from my ex but quickly changing that because I want someone who can be freaking committed to me because I am so amazing :) )

Anyway... I have never wanted flowers so bad!!!

I don’t know if I’ll ever master this whole happily being alone thing but you know what? I don’t hate it and that’s progress

I think this is the first year that I’m sanely single! 2011 was w the guy above, 2012 was w HT and suffering , 2013 I was slowly getting ready to move to Ottawa... 2014 I got the mono disease, 2015 I got dumped on V day, 2016 I was getting over my x and cried my eyes out when I went to a party... 2017 I had a bf but he was cold towards me... and now... hwre we are

Here is to rhe best v day in rhe past 6 yeara... cheers!