Midnight thoughts

I feel like I’m deeply connected with my thoughts and feelings so here is a “discovery” I just had:

I am recovering from fear of abandonment... it’s a thing!! At least according to google it is... I remember that up until a couple of years ago it was my constant fear of being abandoned by those who were not only in my romantic relationship, but also those around me

Every time that someone replied late to me or canceled a meet up I felt unloved and I wanted... I felt anxious until I received that reply...

Today I am happy to say that I have realized that a lot of times it’s not personal

I thank god that my relationship w p wasn’t that long...

I want to apologize to myself that I connected the break up to me not being enough or lovable... I know that it wasn’t... and I will make myself believe that!

Now that I have discovered the problem I promise that I will work on fixing it