Our fears...

So I have started dating this Russian guy who is a funny guy and I really enjoy spending time with him... he makes me laugh and he is kind... but since it's just the beginning I don't know if he is doing it just to get into my pants or he is actually this nice...

I like how real he is... he says things that he wants without worries... so maybe that means that what he does is genuine... because for example when I talk about money he said that he prefers to split the bill at times... I don't know why I am so sensitive about this... my gut feeling tells me that I shouldn't be ok with it... anyway... that's my struggle these days... otherwise all is ok...

it's funny that I brought up the baby subject with him ... and he said he doesn't want babies any time soon.... and that almost made me want to break up with him... but for now I have decided no to...

I'm very busy these days with L&A and everything else in life... no more partying for me for a while... need to study for FRM... that's it for now...