Why am I doing this??!!

today was an amazing day
I felt great!

Not sure why

But I almost don't even want to see him anymore

I feel ashamed for agreeing to meet up with someone who in a way "destroyed" me

He wants to have a spontaneous night... Whatever that means!!!

I admit... I have my weak moments and cant help it... Like this weekend I wanted to be with him so badly... But now...

I feel indifferent but I will go with the flow