Arghhh

I went to whistler this weekend w fanily and friends (theirs) and i couldnt help but think of him like the whole time!!!! It was really terrible... I mean I tried hard not to but couldnt help it... Specially the road... Every moment of it made me feel overwhelmed... :(

It's my own fault... But im glad i went and I stayed... It was good to be ariund couples with kids... I'm so thankful and I hope I make the right decision... I truly honestly think that he knows he can't be the one for me / that ge is not good enough for me/ it's a blessing that he has walked out on me but every cell of my body wants him... I guess thongs will be a but more clear by Tuesday night... Will he or will he not ask me out for coffee? Will / will I not accept... These are the questions...