Miserable an hour ago but fine now ...

How did I go from miserable to fine?

Let me first tell you why I was feeling miserable

I've been back for a week and it feels like he's the air that I breathe so when he's not around I feel like I'm suffocating

Anyway, i dont know if it's the coffee, or the fact that I actually texted him to tell him Im not happy about how hes uninvited me from going to the movies... Or the fact that I took the initiative to call and figure out why the bus is late and then told those around me... But im feeling just fine now.... Things that he's said since I came back: he's been w other girls (not sure if sexually) and he doesnt consider us to be in a relationship...

I should also mention that he read all my daily posts about how I feel about him many of which referred to the fact that i want marriage... But why do i want marriage? Not sure...

Anyway... Ive scared him off... And although Im crazy about him I hated him telling me that we are not in a relationship.... I can "blame" myself for making him run but...

I've just decided to shut up for now