Too many teachers... too many lessons... too thankful!
I am so grateful for every single person that has come across in my life..... except for one lol .... well I don't know why SHF came to my life... although I learned a lot during the short time I was with him..... although I know for sure that it's a good thing that it ended because he was super busy with his life..... I don't know what I need to do to get closure...... for now I'm just living life..... and today I got too excited about life..... sometimes or most of the times I am overwhelmed by how amazing things are..... so many things that I love and appreciate..... even at work...... I am constantly confronted by amazing people/teachers...... they worry me about my own life but I love being around them....... they teach me how I should be thankful about my family..... they teach me that focusing too much on work may result in a raise but not necessarily a good life... they challenge me to think about the definition of what a good life is ....... I search for it... I google it.... it's constantly on my mind.....
It's amazing how thankful I am for EVERY SINGLE THING in my life..... and it's amazing how sad I can still be...... and it's an adventure to look for the reasons........
My biggest worry is not finding the love of my life....... I know it sounds stupid and I think it is.... but the thought of not getting married in the next two years and not having kids before the age of 35 bothers me a lot.......
Yes I do want it... yes I do want it ALL
As much as I love my job because it's challenging, what am I really contributing to this world by going to work? this also bothers me.....
I am looking for something bigger... much much bigger....... but I can't quiet put my finger on it..... (and when it's too big it's a challenge to get it in ;) ) :)))) I can't believe I just said that.......
ok there you go... you can go ahead and change your mind about me.... but it's the reality..... it's a challenge :))
I'm gonna shut up now...... and think some more........
It's amazing how thankful I am for EVERY SINGLE THING in my life..... and it's amazing how sad I can still be...... and it's an adventure to look for the reasons........
My biggest worry is not finding the love of my life....... I know it sounds stupid and I think it is.... but the thought of not getting married in the next two years and not having kids before the age of 35 bothers me a lot.......
Yes I do want it... yes I do want it ALL
As much as I love my job because it's challenging, what am I really contributing to this world by going to work? this also bothers me.....
I am looking for something bigger... much much bigger....... but I can't quiet put my finger on it..... (and when it's too big it's a challenge to get it in ;) ) :)))) I can't believe I just said that.......
ok there you go... you can go ahead and change your mind about me.... but it's the reality..... it's a challenge :))
I'm gonna shut up now...... and think some more........
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