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it means that I'm sad......

Time is passing by so fast........ and I'm so thankful........

I guess I'm just confused...... I kind of know what the problem is....... but I don't know how to tackle the problem....

I can set goals in life and achieve them if I wanted to ..... but I can't achieve something that involves someone else..... such as a relationship.... it has become so scary and out of reach to me that I don't understand why I even bother trying........ at the same time I know that this is my weakness and that I have to do something about it....... such as perhaps seeing a councilor in quotation marks.....

IDK...... for now my focus is on work...I'll think about it next week

don't get me wrong..... I have somehow decided to be ok with this situation..... but the problem is that I know that this is a problem that needs to get fixed...... I don't want to allow myself to get away with it so fast...