Nemikhaam dar be dareh picho khameh in jaaddeh sham, vaisa donya... man mikham piade sham...

So apparently I'm moving back in 3 weeks...... for real........ I think....... well I've accepted the job offer but still have a tiny little hope that they will offer me another position at CMHC

I get really scared when I think about how much more growing up I have to do

BTW my family is not happy....... they are all sad...... I don't like living here...... as much as I LOVE my family I don't get the way they live life..... as much as I'm thankful..... which I really really am A LOT..... I don't get it...... working 5 days a week just to pay the bills in not a way of life......

I love my parents........they still treat me like a baby..... literally....... with love...... affection..... food....... shelter....... I don't have to do a single thing when I'm home and I HATE THAT.... it's not their fault.... I just get really lazy when I start living with them....... they show the true meaning of unconditional love... it's scary...... but god knows how much I love them.........

In a way, moving there excites me because of the challenge..... but I'm afraid in a few months I'll be back on the same boat..... missing this city and family and wanting to come back......