Separation?

And one day you wake up and suddenly you remember why you don't remember much from the past..... a wise part of your brain, the one that's strong and in control, has succeeded in blocking all that is not supposed to be remembered...... all the fights..... all the silence...... all the depression.......... non of it is remembered by the conscious part of the brain unless it's forced out..... and some days, on moments like the one I just experienced, all come rushing back.......

all I can say is that they were NEVER a good fit.... there was always too much difference between them for them to ever be a good fit! Recently their relationship reminds me of my relationship with my X..... and it reminds me how much more thankful I should be that I didn't stay with him. Every single thing that comes out of my mom's mouth is being criticized...... I feel like I should cry for her....... this is the end of the rope of this relationship.... on my mom's behalf, I was ready to slap my dad, scream at him, and walk out..... I would need at least a week of break to get myself together and come back....... but of course she didn't do that. She's the most patient....... god knows she's trying.........

The problem is that I don't know what my role should be.......

I will share with you a secret...... if I was given just one wish it would be to have the ability to always make the right choice.....

At this age, it's better if they stay together...... I can't imagine how things would turn out if they got a divorce..... my dad might be a bit happier, or he may go crazy..... not sure about what would happen to my mom......

Not sure what to think anymore / what to do......

As usual, I'm gonna go clean up a room that's as messy as my thoughts.....