frustrated... hapoo!

lol
i'm tired of people asking me "what's wrong?"

It's obvious that I'm not in a good mood these days..... even I feel it everyday....... I just have a LOT on my mind..... if you were a "traveler" not knowing where you will be next month.... or even worse: where you SHOULD be next month.... what you'll be doing next month.... you'll be as frustrated as I am, maybe even worse...

I still have a smile on my face most of the times..... but it fades away quickly... or it seems fake..... that's why people notice it...... and they try to figure out why.......

Haven't really talked to him since last week......I don't really miss him that much because he had not won my heart.....but maybe I should miss him.... my mind is so occupied with worries that it doesn't have time for "love" ...... not that I'm complaining..... for now...... I want a job....... I'm once step closer..... but it seems like I'd have to wait forever before I see the results......still SO THANKFUL!!!