Last post of the night!

I shouldn't have had that earl gray tea.....

Anyways...... I was just reading some of my posts from the past in June ....

In one I'd mentioned that it's impossible to be "loved" by someone and not know it.... it's just impossible!

So here I'm 2 years later trying to see if it's true or not.....

I consider myself as someone who has been in 4 kind of "relationships"

The first one was more like dating that lasted 3-4 weeks..... he kinda liked me.... but he didn't love me
Second one (which lead to this question): No, he didn't love me... but I kinda liked him at some point..... A LOT
Third one: HT: yes, he was the only one that kinda liked me....... to this day I'm not sure how much but I'm sure not enough!
4th one: (new guys): he kinda likes me but physical attraction is the main part.......

It's kinda sad that I've never really been loved!!! WTF lol ....... ok....... I'm gonna go to bed........ Z GNGT