I need to be given a chance...

Everything great that has happened to me in life has been very much unexpected.... Most of the opportunities arised at a time that I expected it the least..... I need one of those opportunities in my life very badly now...

The rainy weather outside matches my mood..... this time I'm not even sad to see the clouds and the rain... I just need to find a job... god please let me be accepted for the job that I'll be going to have an interview for in the near future..... I don't just want it ..... I NEED IT TO FEEL ALIVE AGAIN..... please......

I'm kind of sad for passing on the opportunity that was a dream come true last year.......I'm not looking for fun anymore.... I've learned a few things in the past year..... although at the time that I got that job I was the happiest person on earth, going for that job this year feels like it will hold me back from some great oppotunities that I MAY have ahead of me.... only time would tell.... getting it was hard last year... but this year there was no challenge to get it, hence lower in terms of value....I hope god forgives me for this and that they don't get mad at me to the point that they won't want to hire anymore international staff...