So sussup?

I think it's necessary for me to write this here because I want to be able to look at this one day and hopefully understand the decision pattern that I'm making today...

I went back to BC for the weekend and saw EV with other friends for lunch. I realized that I still have a huge crush on him.... and as for the guy here....... I really like him...... not as much as EV...... I'm more attracted to EV and he seems like a much better choice for me. The only problem is still that I don't know how he feels about me. The guy here likes me a lot...... he always says he misses me and is so nice and predictable which is something rare to find specially between the persian crowd. However, at the same time the fact that I'm more than likely going to be here for maybe a month more makes me worry and not want to do anything at all. He's completely a kid and as much as he has the potential to be super nice and everything and he will do anything for me if he was told to do so, I feel like he's still learning a lot himself and is still at a stage where he needs someone to take care of him more than the other way around.

I'm so confused.. I don't want to just go to him and end things with him because he is so nice......

I was talking to my friend about how there's always a battle between the heart and the brain...... and it was an interesting concept to talk about. I shall focus on it more in the future when analyzing my relationships.