When I think about my past and present I can sit down and cry for hours.....
But that's my choice..... it's my choice to cry.... or distract myself, as I have been doing for the past 10 months, and be happy....
I've started telling people why I haven't found a full time job yet... or I should say they have started asking me.... and I don't know what to tell them..... why did I stop looking for jobs?
It's because I was optimistic about what was to come.... I have to probably wait until the end of this week.... I want to get accepted... I do.. I think I'll be great at it!
Anyways..... I'm really down today..... could be because it's that time of the month.... have to try to get a full time job..... I can't live like this forever......
PS on a totally unrelated note let me state this here: I am quiet upset about the fact that he didn't call me ... the whole thing bothers me.... I think it's because I haven't found a replacement for him yet... until then I think this is just how it's going to be..... I was talking to my mom the other day and she told me to call his mom and go out with her... and I did...... so I'm meeting up with his mom on Thursday! :)
But that's my choice..... it's my choice to cry.... or distract myself, as I have been doing for the past 10 months, and be happy....
I've started telling people why I haven't found a full time job yet... or I should say they have started asking me.... and I don't know what to tell them..... why did I stop looking for jobs?
It's because I was optimistic about what was to come.... I have to probably wait until the end of this week.... I want to get accepted... I do.. I think I'll be great at it!
Anyways..... I'm really down today..... could be because it's that time of the month.... have to try to get a full time job..... I can't live like this forever......
PS on a totally unrelated note let me state this here: I am quiet upset about the fact that he didn't call me ... the whole thing bothers me.... I think it's because I haven't found a replacement for him yet... until then I think this is just how it's going to be..... I was talking to my mom the other day and she told me to call his mom and go out with her... and I did...... so I'm meeting up with his mom on Thursday! :)
Mikhaam beram paa nadaaraM
Mikhaam naram jaa nadaaraM
Geryeh konam del nadaaraM
Daad bezanam... naa nadaaraM
Man delam tang misheH
To delet sang misheH
Nazaar in tongeh bolooR
Beshkaneh ba in ghorooR
Don't get me wrong.... this IS what I wanted... I didn't want to be distracted or even bothered with him when I come here..... I was even thinking that I may have to call 911 if he bothers me too much (yes, please do call me crazy, but this thought actually did cross my mind at some point!) ..... I think this is the lonely me talking :) .... and the me that's experiencing that time of the month ;)
posted by TolooehFardaa at
6:39 PM
1 Comments:
Don't cry. Don't be so down. I don't know your situation, but I would like to offer some thoughts and prayers. I don't know what you believe, but I believe that we have divine guidance. And even though you feel you are stumbling along, you will get to where you need to when you need to.
I've stumbled along myself and reached points in my life where I could look back and see that it was a perfectly straight line to where I was. So, take comfort. You are not alone, and although you are unique, your situation is not. There are people around that can and will help you. Sometimes, you just have to ask.
Have a Blessed day!
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