Still waiting......

I'm leaving in 5 days.......

My dad asked me if I'm ok with the fact that I am leaving.....

I said I was; and I wasn't lying! I'm not neither happy or sad about the fact that I am leaving. Ok, that was a lie! lol... I am more happy than sad because I feel like this will give me a chance to start over again.....to start applying for jobs if need be (I am still waiting to hear back from them...... still waiting for my dream to come true....)

I do think that this is the end of my "vacation" ..... I need to change my mind set..... I feel like I am finally at peace with where I am in life and have an idea of where I want to go, whereas a few months ago I felt completely lost not knowing what kind of job I want or what I want to do with my future. So I am unbelievably thankful for that..... I asked god for peace and patience and I got that (maybe a bit too much of it but for some reason I am very optimistic about the results and I feel like I did the right thing and I have absoloutely no regrets!)

I will repeat what I want again in case you have not read my previous posts

1) School (check)
2) Job (in progress)
3) Relationship ( at ground zero.... the crush I have is here and busy and possibly in a relationship lol .... )

I am SO glad that I chose to hang out with friends ...... that is what helped me keep my sanity and give value to friendship.... even if they are not meaningful yet, I am happy with my progress..... (this is something else that I am thankful for........)

May 1392 be the greatest year of my life .......

Reading the above you may think that I am selfish..... I love my parents and family too SO SO much... more than ever before...... but I have to find my way in life in order to be happy and give them energy..... I am sure they will be happy and proud of me once I find 2 and even more happy when I find 3......