I'm sorry but the truth is that.......

I sometimes catch myself thinking about him....

Like just now, I was thinking of going to this really nice romantic restaurant that I've never been to (for breakfast because that is after all my favorite meal of the day!!) and I thought for a second how wonderful it would be if I could go with him if he comes to Vancouver sometime in the near future!!!! And then I thought about how happy I would be while sitting with him, and that I would hug him after and go for a walk along the water.... as I was day dreaming I suddenly realized what I was doing and stopped myself!

Don't get me wrong, sometimes I have the opposite feelings for him too. Thinking that I'm so lucky that it didn't work out because, if it had, he would've drived me crazy.... and then I thought if I were ever pregnant with him I'd get mad at him so much that my baby would be harmed!!!! BUT THEN I remembered what he said about him becoming a "different man" once he is done with his exam. AND THEN I though who am I kidding; he's never going to change!

And at that thought, or the though above that because that's what I thinking when I started writing here, I'm going to say good night! lol

ps I am going to this party tomorrow night, but I got sick yesterday and it's not looking good.... WHY GOD WHY? lol but to be honest I'm like maybe it wasn't meant to be........ but all the dreams about me dressing up nicely and meeting the right guy at this party....... oh well........

Good night....... :)