As the mind changes.....

Somehow I'm trying (not really even trying) to get out of the find/go out w friends mood and beginning to realize that it's important for me to find a job! I'm slowly changing my focus..... I've become comfortable with what I have and..... I don't like it!

Yes, I'm enjoying life.... so why am I complaining? Because I feel like I'm happy with all the distractions that I've created for myself.....

No, I can't say that's a bad thing. Maybe this is how it should be ...... it's one of those situations where I don't know the difference between right or wrong.... I just feel like the "show" must go on..... this should not be the end..... I should not settle....

I feel like this should not be the end and I should not be happy with what I have (even though the way I feel (happy) proves me otherwise logically I think that I should not be happy because I'm just wasting time!)

Having said that, I'm just praying everyday that god shows me the right way and helps me choose the right path because that's all I can ask for..... I am slowly deciding on moving back to Ottawa and hope for the best.......

I am also applying and hoping that things will work out.....