Ready, set, go!
Man aan mojam ke aaramesh nadaaram
Be aasaani sareh saazesh nadaram
Hamishe dar gorizo dar gozaaram
Nemimaanam be yek ja, bi gharaaram
I remember, ever since I was a kid, I was an attention seeker..... and it always happened indirectly!
I never EVER begged anyone for attention or friendship, but I was ALWAYS trying to do something impressive and recognizable to be notinced!
Even at this stage of my life, after 27 years, I am still the same!
I always liked to run away from those who didn't appreciate me hoping that my absence will make them regret that they ever ignored me.... I was hoping that they will eventually come to their senses and miss me after I'm gone... and here I am again......wishing for the same thing.... or doing the same thing!
If I go forward with my plan, it will mean that he would have to come and see me there! What are the chances of that happening? And wasn't that me just a few weeks ago trying to get over him? He is so wrong for me, but maybe I think if he does that, if he comes to such a place just to visit me, it would mean that he loves me! I'm not even sure if that's what I want anymore. Remember what I said to you about him verbally abusing me? Anyways..... to be honest with you, deep down I really REALLY don't care if that happens. I want to go out with white people when I get there..... As I had said before: screw waiting! I want to be chosen!
I really REALLY do think that this will be a great experience. I want to be more involved in the Canadian culture..... I think this will be really good for me in many different ways......
I just hope that I can find out about when the job will start so I can start planning for it!!!
At the same time, I have to apply for this other wonderful job opportunity here! If I get the job, it'd mean that there was a reason why I didn't get that other job that I was depressed about...
So many exciting things are happening........ PLEASE GOD SHOW ME THE WAY... LET ME DO THE RIGHT THING...... LET ME CHOOSE THE RIGHT PATH... I BELIEVE IN YOU..... I BELIEVE IN US
Be aasaani sareh saazesh nadaram
Hamishe dar gorizo dar gozaaram
Nemimaanam be yek ja, bi gharaaram
I remember, ever since I was a kid, I was an attention seeker..... and it always happened indirectly!
I never EVER begged anyone for attention or friendship, but I was ALWAYS trying to do something impressive and recognizable to be notinced!
Even at this stage of my life, after 27 years, I am still the same!
I always liked to run away from those who didn't appreciate me hoping that my absence will make them regret that they ever ignored me.... I was hoping that they will eventually come to their senses and miss me after I'm gone... and here I am again......wishing for the same thing.... or doing the same thing!
If I go forward with my plan, it will mean that he would have to come and see me there! What are the chances of that happening? And wasn't that me just a few weeks ago trying to get over him? He is so wrong for me, but maybe I think if he does that, if he comes to such a place just to visit me, it would mean that he loves me! I'm not even sure if that's what I want anymore. Remember what I said to you about him verbally abusing me? Anyways..... to be honest with you, deep down I really REALLY don't care if that happens. I want to go out with white people when I get there..... As I had said before: screw waiting! I want to be chosen!
I really REALLY do think that this will be a great experience. I want to be more involved in the Canadian culture..... I think this will be really good for me in many different ways......
I just hope that I can find out about when the job will start so I can start planning for it!!!
At the same time, I have to apply for this other wonderful job opportunity here! If I get the job, it'd mean that there was a reason why I didn't get that other job that I was depressed about...
So many exciting things are happening........ PLEASE GOD SHOW ME THE WAY... LET ME DO THE RIGHT THING...... LET ME CHOOSE THE RIGHT PATH... I BELIEVE IN YOU..... I BELIEVE IN US
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