No way!

After giving it a LOT of thoughts, I think I'm more than 70% ready to move on....

Although I sometimes find an excuse to stay, I think I was in a verbally abusive relationship

To add to that, I think he did also have signs of the "control pattern" of the codependence psychological problem. In some ways, he was even a narcissist....

Why did I not leave and why am I only 70% ready to move on? Because I liked him..... a lot!

I had so many great memories with him. He is extremely kind in his own ways......

Maybe I'm just finding an excuse so I can move on.... maybe he is non of the above! Maybe it was all because of his stress of the exam...... could that be? I don't/won't know. I'm not a professional!

What I do know is that I WILL NEVER BE able to live with him if who he was is who he is
AND
I'M NOT WILLING to spend the next 2 years AWAY from him guessing/hoping
(the problem is that I don't remember how much he changed after I told him he's verbally abusing me. It all happened so fast!)

I have the perfect opportunity to MOVE ON
and moving on is what I will try to do :)

THANK YOU GOD for helping me come to this realization

HELP ME GOD to do the right thing and feel the right way

More than anything else I need to find a job! :)