Is that so?

I think they have been able to capture my heart with kindness to the point that I don't want to leave anymore.
I want to find a job right here, where my family is
Don't want to be adventurous anymore. The cost is too high.

Har aanche ghesmatam baashad :)

I don't mind leaving in the far far away land (NB) for a few months and see what happens.

Who knows what will happen?

I just know that I don't want to start over again. Yes, I'm getting old... or older.....and I have to slowly get my life together....... I only have 1-2 years tops... then I'll be almost 30 years old....

As much as I want to live in the moment, I can't help but fast forward to the future... I see myself alone somewhere with a job but no friends.....is that what I want?

Have to measure the cost and benefits

PS If I do go back to Ottawa for the temp job, do I want to see him? Can you believe I'm asking this? But believe it or not, it's true! Nothing has really changed about me or my life, so I can't expect him to behave differently towards me. His mom emailed me today to thank me for the card I sent her and she left her phone number (which I already had) and told me that I can call her anytime. Now that's gonna be awkward..... maybe..... maybe not!

Anyways......

G NGT