Happy new year!!!
Ok.
So today is the first day.
I will give it 2 weeks until I make some major decisions for the rest of this year.
About HIM: I haven't talked to him in 5 days.....and the more I think about our relationship the more I think that I was in fact in a verbally abusive relationship and that he may have been a narcissist.
What I want to know is wether or not I have turned into a codependent person ...I don't think I have.....I am fine.... but what I don't get about myself is why I was willing to give up all the respect that I have for myself to go out with someone who was verbally mean most of the times.... I really think that he did have a good heart... he was just very confused with himself too..... and I couldn't help him......
The thought of the above is driving me crazy! He will probably message me tomorrow because I had sent him a card for the new year.... but how am I going to deal with this whole thing?
I'm going on a mini-date with someone..... I don't even know him that well.....the guy that I met at the Yalda party..... he seemed to be very talkative! And a little bit immature...... and I wasn't that attracted to him.... I like muscular people and he was far from that...... but I will try to give it a try......
My head is a mess..... I will have to see what/if he will do anything for my birthday. It will kind of help things a little bit. Part of me is hoping that he won't so that I have a better excuse to "break up"..... but even if he doesn't I will tell myself that he is doing this to make it easier for me to move on.....
Anyways.... I may go out with 2-3 ppl in the next week..... I just want to try...... y can't any of them be a bit chubbier?
So today is the first day.
I will give it 2 weeks until I make some major decisions for the rest of this year.
About HIM: I haven't talked to him in 5 days.....and the more I think about our relationship the more I think that I was in fact in a verbally abusive relationship and that he may have been a narcissist.
What I want to know is wether or not I have turned into a codependent person ...I don't think I have.....I am fine.... but what I don't get about myself is why I was willing to give up all the respect that I have for myself to go out with someone who was verbally mean most of the times.... I really think that he did have a good heart... he was just very confused with himself too..... and I couldn't help him......
The thought of the above is driving me crazy! He will probably message me tomorrow because I had sent him a card for the new year.... but how am I going to deal with this whole thing?
I'm going on a mini-date with someone..... I don't even know him that well.....the guy that I met at the Yalda party..... he seemed to be very talkative! And a little bit immature...... and I wasn't that attracted to him.... I like muscular people and he was far from that...... but I will try to give it a try......
My head is a mess..... I will have to see what/if he will do anything for my birthday. It will kind of help things a little bit. Part of me is hoping that he won't so that I have a better excuse to "break up"..... but even if he doesn't I will tell myself that he is doing this to make it easier for me to move on.....
Anyways.... I may go out with 2-3 ppl in the next week..... I just want to try...... y can't any of them be a bit chubbier?
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