Up and down.... Up and down....

That's how my emotions are these days......up and down..... there's a great fluctuation in my mood throughout the day from the minute I wake up until I go to bed.... keeping them close to the centre is not an easy task to do..... My thoughts are all over the place..... one minute I think I want to just pack my stuff and move back..... the next minute I think I should wait at least until the end of December.... You may think that its because of him.... but it's not.... as much as I sometimes miss him and want to be with him he's not the only reason why I want to move back..... I just don't feel at home here in Vancouver... and I honestly think that if I move back there I will have a better chance at landing a job.... Finding a great job in Ottawa would be a dream come true (like the chance that I missed.....) Finding a great job in Toronto would be great Finding a great job in Calgary after May would be great Finding a great job in Vancouver would be .... good..... I feel like I want to explore other places.... but as the weather is getting colder I'm thinking that I may not want to explore places other than those in Ontario and BC...... Writing these down helps me clear my head... thanks for listening... this is how I feel today... I'll let u know if anything changes..... PS I was about to call one of my friends in Ottawa to tell her that I'm moving back there to stay w her until the end of November (and of course pay for the rent) but after I went for a run and came back I changed my mind.......