Jealous?

Honestly I'm not even thinking about relationships/loves or anything like that these days..... I feel like a dead person ... or almost dead who is trying to just survive and KEEP APPLYING..... I have hope..... hope keeps me going...at least for now... I was just reading a conversation between a bf and a gf on someone's wall and I though it was so cute what they wrote to each other like "I love u" the other saying "I love you more"...... I know I sometimes write about how I feel about him but that's only because him and finding a job are the only two things on my mind...... and he has not said anything close to I LOVE U to keep me even day dreaming lol...... whatever......I'm thankful for what I have...... thank you god...... help me stay strong......and help me find the right job :X