btw

I should be thankful in a way.... ever since i got busy with thoughts of "omg what will happen next" i haven't been thinking about ht as much at all.... i guess i'm puting myself first which is important.... and on the side i can't even begin to think what will happen if i really get it...... it will be unbelievable..... i don't want to think about it..... but it would mean that i will be there to celebrate my baby's favorite day of the year with him... i have come to terms with myself that this whole idea of us may never work out..... sometimes i'm not sure if i'm the one who is trying to change him or he is the one that's trying to change me...... either way some things need to change....... and i don't want to be the one chasing him ...... at all..... because it's just not right! i wish myself the best lol :) khodaayaa ...... shokret :)