What ifs and but ifs....

If you want to increase your happiness in life it's important that you get rid of these the above mentioned wordsd.... you have to go on with certainty and reality ...if something is bothering you and is a question mark in your head try to solve it if at all possible...if not just try your best to let go of it and never think about it again.... We live in a crazy world, that's a fact! And sometimes it may seem hard to keep up with it.... Example of crazy is when you see perfectly good girls having had met the wrong guys in their lives and not having had allowed themselves to move on.... now the guy is married with a kid and the girl is still stuck thinking about what would have happened if...... specially since the guy is stil somehow in love with her and contacting her (don't worry ... I'm not talking about me... but out of the few people I know 3 of them have been/are in this situation which does not make sense to me at all..... people need to learn to move on, and ignore the past if needed!!!!) Anyways, I was just thinking about something again since I was telling my x-gf about it..... I was telling her that I went to the other side of this country to study and of course see Mr. VJ to put a closure on my crush or whatever you want to call it... now he's part of the past and I was able to move on...... and I recommend it to all people out there..... life is too precious to spend it all on wondering about the what ifs and but ifs....... I've recently put myself in a situation like that I think..... but it's for short term, and that's ok... my "bf" is on the other side of the country, and the only thing I know for a fact is that I care about him... but the distance is not helping..... and he hasn't shown affection to me at all, and we have kind of discussed moving on since we are going to be apart for at least the next 2-3 years..... I feel like I've always been the one who chased him..... for some reason no matter what he does at the end of the day I still like him.... which is not a good thing!!! or is it? When we met, for the first 2-3 weeks I was the happiest person in the world because he showed that he cared.... A LOT.... and he never got mad.....and he expressed himself..... but after that I was the only one..... he's not experienced, and neither am I... so we are both trying........ Moving on.... honestly the only thing that matters these days is me figuring out what I have to do ...... finding a job.... and growing up....... The problem with living w family is the fact that they spoil you....... my parents are spoiling me big time to the point that drives me crazy.... they don't even allow me to freaking get up to get my own glass of water! Am I that important? Are they feeling bad for me and are trying to make me happy? I don't know..... but I feel like I'm a 2 year old child around them and I act like one too!!! Which is not a good feeling...... I need my independency again...... GOD: thank you for always helping me choose the right path...... it's good to look back at your life with not many regrets..... THANK YOU...... please help me find a job, do the right thing, and help me find some certainty in this uncertain life!