Va in MANAM...tako tanhaa... dar aastaaneyeh viraanegi..... empty....... is how I feel.

Tuesday, August 14, 2012

He's the only one that I would do anything for....

Well beside my family members..... or even more? It's a strange feeling...... I don't know what went wrong yesterday......still trying to figure it out..... I accepted to do something that I knew was wrong in so many ways....first of all I felt like I was taken advantage of by who you may want to call my best friend....... it's my problem not hers....... I don't know how to say no! I don't know how anyone would say no to be honest..... she asked me if I could help her with her homework (which is something that would take 7-8 hours and it wouldn't be fair to the other students in the class for her to get help so it was something that I was against of) ..... but I agreed to do it and felt guilty for doing it .... not only that I spent 7-8 hours doing something that at the end of the day would make me feel bad about myself.......so what's the moral of the story here? IDK..... This morning I was so upset that I said if I am in the same situation ever again I would say no no matter how hurt she's gonna get..... a true friend should not ask for this kind of help anyways.... So I told HT.....and he got so mad at me .... I don't understand myself...why the heck did I tell him? obviously he would get upset!!!!! SO I can't even be mad at him for getting mad at me..... he threatened me and made me feel even worse..... he said what if the prof find out? it wasn't like I waas doing all her homework! but I felt so bad that I couldn't sleep properly So at the end of the day I don't know who to blame? The source : my "friend" Myself for accepting Him for getting mad at me and making me feel so bad Still haven't figured it out...... but I'm at peace with myself, him, and her! And I have a feeling everything's gonna be ok....

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