Heloooooo
Wow can't believe I haven't written anything here since Oct 15th!!!
I sometimes have my doubts..... I have so many different feelings for this guy.... I really really really like him because of who he is and his past and his beliefs...... on the other hand sometimes he does things that piss me off so much that I wonder why we even try! Almost everytime that we are together we get into an argument.....something silly.......he always likes to think that he's right.... and he's mad at the whole world usually and has something negative to say about everyone around him..... these are things that Idon't like..... even when he's with me..... he makes me feel bad about myself....... just bcz he likes to test me on everything.....and to be honest I'm not the most knowledgable person in the world and maybe even what I know is less than the average...... I recognize this and know that I need to change it.... and just because I think I someday will I think I should be ok with all his criticisms until I change......
Right now I'm mad at him.... haven't seen him in 4 days...... well 2 days actually but the other one doesnt count because I only saw him for 5 minutes.......anyways..... and then I sent him a txt saying "why don't u come to see me" ..... he said "ziaadit mishe!" which means something like "I have already done so much, don want to right now" in a sarcastic way.... anyways....... it's one of those moments when I need to sit down and figure out why the he** he's even going out with me? I think he's nice and everything and he's afraid of going after girls because he doesnt like the feeling of getting rejected..... but who does right? So..... I dont know..... will update u later.....
I sometimes have my doubts..... I have so many different feelings for this guy.... I really really really like him because of who he is and his past and his beliefs...... on the other hand sometimes he does things that piss me off so much that I wonder why we even try! Almost everytime that we are together we get into an argument.....something silly.......he always likes to think that he's right.... and he's mad at the whole world usually and has something negative to say about everyone around him..... these are things that Idon't like..... even when he's with me..... he makes me feel bad about myself....... just bcz he likes to test me on everything.....and to be honest I'm not the most knowledgable person in the world and maybe even what I know is less than the average...... I recognize this and know that I need to change it.... and just because I think I someday will I think I should be ok with all his criticisms until I change......
Right now I'm mad at him.... haven't seen him in 4 days...... well 2 days actually but the other one doesnt count because I only saw him for 5 minutes.......anyways..... and then I sent him a txt saying "why don't u come to see me" ..... he said "ziaadit mishe!" which means something like "I have already done so much, don want to right now" in a sarcastic way.... anyways....... it's one of those moments when I need to sit down and figure out why the he** he's even going out with me? I think he's nice and everything and he's afraid of going after girls because he doesnt like the feeling of getting rejected..... but who does right? So..... I dont know..... will update u later.....
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