Today is her birthday...

but I'm not going to say happy birthday to her.....
I can forgive but I can't forget....

I feel like the only time that I'm willing to ever talk to her is if I someday become a successful person so that I can prove her wrong.... some days this dream only seems steps away and other days it seems like it's far away...

But as another friend says..."don't stop trying".....so I won't..... :)

It's not as if the things she said were untrue..... she said she's running out of ideas to help me have a normal life... I guess this is called tough love.... which is also a reason why best friends suddenly stop being friends....

I don't know whether the things she said are encouraging me to try harder or the opposite.....unfortunately I feel like it's mostly the opposite...... because everytime I'm close to succeedeeing I feel like it's too good to be true.... I think most people think that I'm normal... I'm the only one who sometimes believes otherwise!

She has so far succeeded in the things she's wanted to do so there's no need to wish her luck... the only thing I can wish her is to have a better understanding of respecting EVERYONE even if they are so different from being perfect!