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I was just watching a movie about Iran, "Tehran beh Haraaj (Tehran for sale)". I was about to puke after watching it.......the way people are, the way they talk, the things they talk about, the way the government is treating people, the way people treat each other, their mindsets, the fact that they don't have any freedom, the emptiness in their eyes, ALL OF IT made me want to puke.
I don't feel like I belong to that country one bit. Yes, I'm Iranian but I can not relate to what it has become. I'm more of a traditional Iranian. Those that existed generations ago. I left the country when I was a teenager and back in the days I was brought up with my parents', grandparents' mindsets. All those who were older than me. I didn't have a chance to form my own opinions. Not because they didn't let me, just because I was too young! So that's why I'm more traditional than a lot of Iranian people...
I'm not sure why I'm still trying so hard to fit in between THEM. I don't have to. Their population here is not huge at all. In fact, I know less than 200 persian people and I might know less than 20 of them really well. The rest are just those who I've seen around. I don't even like the things they talk about. But I've always had problems with feeling like I don't belong. I want to be like them. And I want to be like Canadians as well. I'm much more of a Canadian than an Iranian. And the fact that this is the case makes me a stranger in their eyes. Therefore, I will never be one of them!
I like their traditions, I like the ones that are traditional, the ones that are polite. The guys that act like a man. Those that don't fool around. Those who are like my grandparents. I don't even mind if they are religious. Does that make me close minded? Maybe I don't understand the meaning of being religious. But I like those who have some sort of belief. Maybe because it's too scary to think that we are all alone in this world and no one is watching us. I like to pray from time to time and think/believe that there's something/someone out there listening to me. Someone who has the power to make my dreams come true. It's my Santa Clause, and no, I haven't grown up enough to believe that it doesn't exist!
I'll be back in the REAL WORLD all ALONE in less than 3 weeks. For now, I'm trying to enjoy my time w la familia and don't stress about what's coming up. Trying to focus on the POWER OF NOW. No regrets yet.... happy mood all the way :)
THANK YOU GOD <3
I was just watching a movie about Iran, "Tehran beh Haraaj (Tehran for sale)". I was about to puke after watching it.......the way people are, the way they talk, the things they talk about, the way the government is treating people, the way people treat each other, their mindsets, the fact that they don't have any freedom, the emptiness in their eyes, ALL OF IT made me want to puke.
I don't feel like I belong to that country one bit. Yes, I'm Iranian but I can not relate to what it has become. I'm more of a traditional Iranian. Those that existed generations ago. I left the country when I was a teenager and back in the days I was brought up with my parents', grandparents' mindsets. All those who were older than me. I didn't have a chance to form my own opinions. Not because they didn't let me, just because I was too young! So that's why I'm more traditional than a lot of Iranian people...
I'm not sure why I'm still trying so hard to fit in between THEM. I don't have to. Their population here is not huge at all. In fact, I know less than 200 persian people and I might know less than 20 of them really well. The rest are just those who I've seen around. I don't even like the things they talk about. But I've always had problems with feeling like I don't belong. I want to be like them. And I want to be like Canadians as well. I'm much more of a Canadian than an Iranian. And the fact that this is the case makes me a stranger in their eyes. Therefore, I will never be one of them!
I like their traditions, I like the ones that are traditional, the ones that are polite. The guys that act like a man. Those that don't fool around. Those who are like my grandparents. I don't even mind if they are religious. Does that make me close minded? Maybe I don't understand the meaning of being religious. But I like those who have some sort of belief. Maybe because it's too scary to think that we are all alone in this world and no one is watching us. I like to pray from time to time and think/believe that there's something/someone out there listening to me. Someone who has the power to make my dreams come true. It's my Santa Clause, and no, I haven't grown up enough to believe that it doesn't exist!
I'll be back in the REAL WORLD all ALONE in less than 3 weeks. For now, I'm trying to enjoy my time w la familia and don't stress about what's coming up. Trying to focus on the POWER OF NOW. No regrets yet.... happy mood all the way :)
THANK YOU GOD <3
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