It's mind boggling how much I have changed in the past year
I can't keep up with the speed that I'm changing..... and it's all in a good way! I should be so very thankful and I am...... thanks for all the opportunities that you have put before me so I can experience all these new great things.....

It was only 3 monthes ago that I was depressed for breaking up with MH..... but then I moved on and I met someone else..... we've been together for 2 monthes now..... I still feel like he doesn't appreciate me enough...... I don't know about what I'm gonna do......

He's out partying now without me! Do I deserve this? Do I think he's after other girls? No But do I think it's not right that he's doing this? Yes a little bit.....

Some days I think so highly of myself......and somedays I think I'm a nothing....... hopefully I'll realize the true value of me before making a huge mistake..... people tell me I'm great..... or maybe I hang out with people who think I'm great? I don't know....... I have my days....

I just pray to god to show me the right way..... I like him and all..... but..... our relationship is not as magical as it was at the beginning ......and I understand that it's only the first few monthes that's amazing...... but it wasn't me who changed...... I want the romance to go on forever....

I told him that I don't feel like he likes me.....and I told him about how he did things at the beginning to make me feel like he likes me......and in response he said "well I did that at the beginning so I thought that you already know about how I feel" .......then I said to him showing someone that you have feelings for them is not something that should stop after a while!

Maybe I'm being too childish....... but I have too much respect for myself to let someone who just came here and who has nothing yet to tell me that what I do is wrong!