Khasteh az tozih va tojih.......

I'm tired of having to explain myself all the time!
Dear god,

Let me be wise enough to ask for what's good for me and not go after things that are troublesome.

I'm tired of having to explain myself all the time. I'm tired of this awkward feeling....I'm tired of not knowing how to deal with my feelings.... I'm surprised that I'm complaining because I am the one that always complains and hates the fact that I feel numb and indifferent about most things in life...... so this is probably a good change.....the fact that I care.... the fact that I feel happy/sad.....the fact that I feel is a good feelings... but it makes me uncomfortable.... I think it's really awkward that this guy liked me and I didn't talk to him because I had exams etc. and now that I like him he's not interested and I don't know what to do.... I'm sure I'll find out eventually....it just takes time :)

HELP ME BE STRONG AND HELP ME DO THE RIGHT THING

I think today was the last day of me trying..... I think I'm ready to move on...