cheghad lahzeh haye shadi zood tamoom mishan....

I was happy this morning..... I saw him last night... I donnow there's something about him that I'm so attracted to! which is rare in my life.... I had a dream about him last night.... and I woke up from being too happy! has that ever happened to you? lol

anyways..... but then he msged me today and ruined everything..... persian people are difinitely complicated...... I made the mistake of telling him about VJ... and there came the questions...... and now it turns out some of his friends don't talk to him or talk to him in a weird way because they thing he's a player....and those friends turn out to be mutual friend with VJ.... so it's probably VJ's fault! whatever.... I don't have time for this Sh*t ...... I like him..... but you can't make someone like you.....that's the number one rule before you fall in love!

+ he makes me feel like I'm the weirdest person on this planet.....which might be true...... but I don't want to think about it PLUS I have so many good qualities that I'm not gonna let someone make me feel bad about myself just because of the fact that I grew up alone and don't have feelings.......that's something I want to change..... but I'm not being given the chance......or maybe I was given a chance... but I failed.......cause I couldn't have feelings for the people that I know now...... I don't know how to love........ I don't know how to get attached....... I've wanted to be free for so long that I don't think I can ever be glued back!