Officially depressed!

Let's blame it on the fact that it's that time of the month + the fact that I'm writing this after midnight!

I was thinking that since I remember, I've been chasing the ball that life has thrown for me like a dog .... with no break.... I mean even if there was a break I was never at peace.....always wanting more.... tired of this run.....want to settle down......want to relax.......want to live......want to laugh.....want to love! Is that too much to ask for? I mean I have all that I want....... I just don't know how to keep it all .... now that I have it all I need to learn to manage it..... but believe me.......it's not an easy job!

~sigh~

sometimes I think to myself "I wish I was married to someone reach" but as soon as I think that I go "yea....and? what next?" ..... then I shut up!

Goodnight!