Time to go to bed, but before I do, just wanted to say......

I donnow wether I'm happy or what it is.......
I'm definately "something"

I keep on smiling and laughing for no reason......
Like ok.....I'm happy but at the same time I'm confused...... I dont want to be happy..... there's no reason to be happy......

I'm just glad that I know what I know now.........

So as I said before.......I hung out with him and his crew last night and it was a lot of fun......... I dont know why....... the adrenaline rush of just being around him for 7 hours.......

Don't take this the wrong way.........I'm not after him AT ALL........ because he's such and A hole..... he really is..... but at the same time ......... I have strong feelings for him...... both good and bad........ and lets just say that when I came home at 2:30 a.m. I wasn't even tired.......

It was an amazing feeling........

I reapeat........I'm not after himmmmm ok? Believe me! He's going through a lot right now..... I feel bad for him.... but hopefully he'll feel better soon......I'm sure we can stay friends.......

But he's on my mind like all the time and it's annoyiiiiiiiiiiing....... ok........

I feel lost...... not complaining.......thankful......... I hope everything works out for me with school and everything......... trying to balance life and school..........which I'm REALLY bad at........

But tomorrow's a new day.........I'm thankful

THANK YOU GOD

"Seek, and you shall recieve" :)