Talking to myself again....

Because there's no one that'll understand, no one that's willing to listen

I feel sorry for myself

He called about 2 hours ago, which kind of put a smile on my face not because he called but because I was thinking about him a few minutes before he called and I have no idea what this means? A while before he called, I was praying that I'll find some guy soon that will treat me right and everything........

Anyways..... so he called.......... I picked up the phone because I'm NOT a big fan of drama....... I picked up and said I'm in the car w a few people and I'll call u later. He said ok and hung up. I prepared my speech in the car and when I got home, even though I'm speechless and dont want to say anything I have to say something.........

The most beautiful conclusion that I came to was this:

1) I used to like him A LOT a month ago
2) I started really disliking him since a month ago
3) Both feelings are very strong and hope/helplessly leave me in the middle

It wouldve been nice if I could somehow get everything erased and kick him out. But I have a long way to go, and him calling me doesnt help

Oh oh oh......... and guess what? When I called him back he didn't pick up

LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOL

and of course, I sent him a msg and he didnt reply


all I can say is FML

I'm gonna go to sleep........ waiting time begins....... if I talk to him I'll make sure to let him know exactly how I feel! (yea right!)