is amazed at....

Oops....this is not a facebook status!

Ok......I'm amazed at how foreign the meaning of friendship is to me!

I want to care!!!! I keep saying this...... as you know I say it all the time........how can I care? Why should I care? What makes one care about a friend? Isn't it just because of the need of not being alone? So you find friends so you can spend time with them so that you won't get bored? Isn't that just using them? I guess people use each other....... to fill their free time? Is that all friendship is?

I want to be a friend! Why can't I want to have a friend? Whyyyyyyyyyyyyyy?

I don't get it