A letter to him.....

I live a simple life......translation: there's not much drama in my life on an everyday basis.......

I can not handle nor need to deal with things that are so unpredictable

Even if it brings the best out of me when it's present, I do not want to go through all the torture trying to figure out the answers to my WHYs all by myself......

I'd rather have a normal steady life than a high pick of happiness and then a drop for a long period of time......

I can't deal with people that I can't trust....

It's funny how still at the end of it I'm afraid that he'd think that I didn't care...... because I did care.......I did care a lot....... and I'm sure he knew ...... It's just hard to believe that he knew how much I cared and chose to ignore me......

Vaghteh raftan baaz gooyam kam nahaadam kam neshastam......this is what he said about his last gf...... and it kinda stayed with me......

My brain simply gives an ERROR when I try to put the He knew that I cared a lot + He decided to ignore me together.....

I guess if I were to tell my story to an outsider they would say "snap out of it...... he doesn't care AT ALL" ...... all the signs say that he doesnt ....... so WTF is wrong with me?

VERDICT: Ignore him ..... completely...... or if you do meet someday..... be as cold as ice :)