How cute, childish, f*ed up.......

I realized something tonight

I'm afraid of getting close to people because of the following reason

1) In general, I dont like people so sometimes I really don't care if I'm with them or not
2) If there is someone that I like I don't want to get close to them or even think about liking them becaue when I usually like someone they dont like me in return
3) I dont want to "hang out" with the guys that I don't like because I don't want them to think that I'm in love with them or I dont want them to fall in love with me

The one thing that I'm super scared of is people falling in love with me........ I dont want to hurt anyone anymore........