Excuse me but....
Who are you calling crazy?
I'm certainly not the crazy one here! I mean I could be crazy, but certainly not in regard to this situation!
I have the right to be upset! I have the right to be mad and sad. It does hurt when you msg someone and don't get a reply from them. Specially if that someone is someone that you care about.
It's ok to be sad and upset. It's ok to feel. It's ok to feel like you're going crazy.
I just feel sorry for myself for having to go through this.......
I feel sad that I'm letting it happen to me. I am sad that I can't stop caring. I am sad that I forgive him. I'm sad that I like him unconditionally. And there is a reason for it! It's because he's still the only person in this world that can actually make my day! He turns it upside down. Only when he's around that is. When he's not around he has the opposite affect.
So let's say out of the 30 days that we're "in touch" I'm happy 2 days and sad 28 days. But I think those 2 days are worth it! Just because I have no other thing that makes me this happy. I do try to live my normal boring life on the side and feel all these feelings. It's ok to cry........ I actually missed crying ........
At this point, after msging him and not hearing from him, I'm telling myself to be ok with it. That's just how he is. He's weird. He can't help it. The only thing that makes me regretfully sad is the fact that I made the same mistake twice. I have said this in my last post I guess but I'll say it again. I was ok with not calling him/ talking to him everyday! He's the one who insisted that we talk more. And now I haven't heard from him for about a week. Like WTF!!! I had done this before with RD..... as soon as he asked for attention and I gave it to him he ran the other way...... in his case he had gone back to his x-gf........ I wonder if it's the same thing this time. I would laugh so hard if it was!!! I would be so happy...... then I will know for sure that all men are the same!
I'm certainly not the crazy one here! I mean I could be crazy, but certainly not in regard to this situation!
I have the right to be upset! I have the right to be mad and sad. It does hurt when you msg someone and don't get a reply from them. Specially if that someone is someone that you care about.
It's ok to be sad and upset. It's ok to feel. It's ok to feel like you're going crazy.
I just feel sorry for myself for having to go through this.......
I feel sad that I'm letting it happen to me. I am sad that I can't stop caring. I am sad that I forgive him. I'm sad that I like him unconditionally. And there is a reason for it! It's because he's still the only person in this world that can actually make my day! He turns it upside down. Only when he's around that is. When he's not around he has the opposite affect.
So let's say out of the 30 days that we're "in touch" I'm happy 2 days and sad 28 days. But I think those 2 days are worth it! Just because I have no other thing that makes me this happy. I do try to live my normal boring life on the side and feel all these feelings. It's ok to cry........ I actually missed crying ........
At this point, after msging him and not hearing from him, I'm telling myself to be ok with it. That's just how he is. He's weird. He can't help it. The only thing that makes me regretfully sad is the fact that I made the same mistake twice. I have said this in my last post I guess but I'll say it again. I was ok with not calling him/ talking to him everyday! He's the one who insisted that we talk more. And now I haven't heard from him for about a week. Like WTF!!! I had done this before with RD..... as soon as he asked for attention and I gave it to him he ran the other way...... in his case he had gone back to his x-gf........ I wonder if it's the same thing this time. I would laugh so hard if it was!!! I would be so happy...... then I will know for sure that all men are the same!
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