Patience is a virture.....

:(

As I published my last post he msged me....... like less than 30 seconds after I published it......

I was mad at him today so I msged him and told him....... then he called me.........with his sweet voice....... saying that I shouldnt complain.......that he'd been busy .... sh*t like that....... and I bought it........ I was in a dreamy world until now......... he told me that he'd txt msg me (caz I asked him if I can call him and then he said he'll message me) ...... but it's midnight now and he hasn't yet........ and I can't believe I'm crying.... I hate this..... I hate this I HATE this........

I keep telling myself to give it a chance........ even though it's been so long I tell myself that I should give it a try...... even though I'm sorta over him ......... I don't want any other guy but at the same time I don't want him either........... even if thinking about him and talking to him is so very sweet I feel like I can't take it........... I hate being far away from him........ I feel like he's playing games......... all these stupid guys like to play games............. and I HATE playing games!

I really don't want to talk to him too much before I go there ........ I'm so mad at him....... I don't want to talk to him......... (still crying) ........... whatever.......... I'm gonna go to sleep and not respond to him if he calls / msgs me ........ ( I have a feeling I won't do that but I'll try my best not to....... )