Keep fighting it......

He called tonight, we talked, I thoroughly enjoyed the conversation (as always)

But you know what......as much as I like him I cant really decide about what I should do

Over the past 3 years, I've tried so hard to forget him ........ and now he's back...... maybe I should just be friends with him....

Ok ..... I should change my whole perspective about him........

Think of him as a friend...........

Actually that's what I prefer (yea right!) ......... seriously....... I know that there are other girls that he would probably want to be with...... so why would I even go there! I will just be friends with him until he gets a grilfriend......... and as I'm typing this I know I won't be ok with that so nevermind! I deleted him from FB for changing his status to "in a relationship" for god's sake!

There are some things from the past that still hurt me...... I sent him a freaking HAND MADE card and he didn't even thank me....... I sent him a letter telling him about how much I like him and he said that he's happily in a relationship...... I remember all the times that I wanted to talk to him and he ignored me.......

I mean those are all little excuses....... to tell u the truth I won't even know where to begin..... so I should just end it before it even begins .....

Or I should think of him as a friend..... maybe I'll try doing that....... caz I don't want to lose him that's for sure!